hais im not being myself for these few days man... and im feeling very warm these few days even when ppl sae its friggin cold... and i think im getting depression man... one moment i can feel veri lively and the next minute i can feel like breaking down...and in my mind theres onli her.. worring over her.. this is the 1st time i ever felt like this man.. but im sure she can take care of herself... hais well i cant concentrate on my studies these few days... getting sianed easily... nvm lets leave all the bad thing behind... well first of all im here coz of researching for my work... then jus came to blog lo... well today had 2 periods of Eng... so our teacher was mrs yeo... i always thot that chloe png was our eng teacher lo... coz that time cut hair then i thot still first lesson lo... kinda messed up... crapped the whole way thru sch and our PE teacher was Mr Peter Lim... he was going thru the same process agn.. then took our height and weight...
last yr: height 160cm
weight 64kg
this yr:height 164cm
weight 65kg
well thats a good new for me tho... grew 4 cm and onli gain 1kg in 4cm which i guess that is still not enuf... and i am gonna lose all these fucking fats in my body... how i wish i was still my aneroxic like state when i was young... all bones and the doctor said that i was too severly underweight... i onli weigh veri little.. bak then i was a fast sprinter.. but now.... ugh all becoz all was i heed my parents and doctors advise to eat more and gain weight for health reasons... and so who knows i over ate and became a fucking fat ass... nah bei then now haf to work so hard jus to lose weight and i run so slow now like a tortise... not onli for my self i oso wanna become fit so that i can also protect the weak and overcome the strong and most importantly to become a mobile sheild with intelligence for her... whats the point of being fit when you are retarded with low knowledge.. knowledge is power without knowledge it is also hard to fight a war without strategy.. sending all your men in one go without any strategy and knowledge about the opposite will get urself owned... well i guess i'll stop my lecture here lols... well today went jammin with nicole,ben,sw,khid,azhar,azham,rozzi then in the end we missed the time and we were so late for cross country so we poned... going for tmrs make up session... hais kinda bored now... guess i should stop thinking too much and nidda relax a bit before i get into a real nutsy state...
Labels: depressed or stressed?
posted @ Wednesday, January 7, 2009(10:04 PM)